Sunday, January 4, 2009

Joyful Christmas

We were so happy to have Stanley home this Christmas!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Let the Stable Still Astonish!!!

Let the stable still astonish:
Straw-dirt floor, dull eyes,
Dusty flanks of donkeys, oxen;
Crumbling, crooked walls;
No bed to carry that pain,
And then, the child,
Rag-wrapped, laid to cry
In a trough.
Who would have chosen this?
Who would have said, "Yes,
Let the God of all the heavens
and earth
Be born here, in this place"?

Who but the same God
Who stands in the darker, fouler
of our hearts
and says, "Yes,
let the God of Heaven and Earth
be born here-
in this place."

~ by Leslie Leyland Fields

Wow! How true how awesome this is! Doesn't this just humble you and yet fill your heart with joy at the same time? Meg got me "Patches of Godlight:Father Tim's Favorite Quotes" for Christmas and this now one of my favorite quotes from this book.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

simple blessings

A few weeks before school started some friends from church gave us some passes to Silver Dollar City, Celebration City and White Water. It was so much fun! Our 10 year old son had never been to any of these places and we hadn't been to Silver Dollar City in 14 or 15 years! We were only there 3 days, but we had a blast! Some friends from our Sunday school class were down there too, so we met up with them a few times too.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

giving my burdens to God

I have always been a little too emotional and sensitive. When I was a child I remember crying my eyes out when Pinky Tuscadero left Fonzie on the TV program "Happy Days". How silly is that??? Sometimes I don't know if the Lord is leading me or my emotions are.
I did a LOT of research about adoption before we started the process and really felt "led" by God to pursue it. I also believe God led us to adopt from Haiti and specifically from GLA. I also believe that God had Stanley picked out for us long before the time came for us to find out who he was. At first when I told my parents we were planning on adopting, they thought I was crazy because they knew how busy and stressed we were with our 3 other children and financially barely getting by. I told them how my heart ached for orphans and I knew I couldn't change the world, BUT, I could change one child's world. Well, it still isn't enough. I want to do more! I want GLA to have ALL the money they need to build their new buildings AND to provide for the children at the orphanage. I guess my point is, I want to make it ALL work out, I want the whole problem to get better or go away. Well, I can't do that because I am human, I am not God. This world is not always pretty and there is so much sorrow and suffering in it.
I heard a song on the radio today that really spoke to me, especially the part about the children in Africa. I am not God, I can not change the world and He loves His children more than I do. He is an almighty, merciful, sovereign, loving God and He is our Father.

Steven Curtis Chapman - Yours
From the album This Moment

I walk the streets of London
And notice in the faces passing by
Somthing that makes me stop and listen
My heart grows heavy with the cry

Where is the hope for London?
You whisper and my heart begins to soar
As I'm reminded
That every street in London in Yours
Oh, yes it is

I walk the dirt roads of Uganda
I see the scars that war has left behind
Hope like the sun is fading
They're waiting for a cure no one can find

And I hear children's voices singing
Of a God who heals and rescues and restores
And I'm reminded
That every child in Africa is Yours

And its all Yours, God, Yours, God
Everything is Yours
From the stars in the sky
To the depths of the ocean floor
And its all Yours, God, Yours, God
Everything is Yours
You're the Maker and Keeper, Father and Ruler of everything
It's all Yours

And I walk the sidewalks of Nashville
Like Singapore, Manila and Shanghai
I rush by the beggar's hand and the wealthy man
And everywhere I look I realize

That just like the streets of London
For every man and woman, boy and girl
All of creation
This is our Father's world


It's all Yours, God

The glory is Yours, God
All the honor is Yours, God
The power is Yours, God
The glory is Yours, God

You're the King of Kings
And Lord of Lords

**This is the new verse added**
I’ve walked the valley of death’s shadow
So deep and dark that I could barely breathe
I’ve had to let go of more than I could bear
And questioned everything that I believe
But still even here
in this great darkness
A comfort and hope come breaking through
As I can say in life or death
God we belong to you

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

The sweetest thing

Yesterday was my birthday and every year I wish it could be a "special" day for me. Because of time and sometimes money it ends up just being like any other day. As a matter of fact my husband had to work last night. My mother-in-law watched the younger kids while me and my oldest daughter went out to eat. We got home late and it was time for bed. While I was giving out directions to my kids so we could help each other hurry to bed, my 10 year old walks by and hands me a piece of paper. I figured he felt guilty for not telling me happy birthday so he quickly got a piece of paper and wrote "Happy Birthday Mom, I love you" I grabbed the paper and read it and saw that he had enclosed $10 of his own money! I was SO touched, he has been saving money for a new bike from Wal-Mart. Everytime we go to Wal-Mart he goes down the bike aisle and looks to see if they have it on sale. I keep telling him Wal-Mart doesn't have "sales" so it will be the same price, but he goes to look at it anyway, hoping he can afford it. This has been going on for several months and he still keeps saving his money. I asked him if he wanted to keep his $10 for his bike and he said, "no, it's alright". I kept the tears from rolling until I was able to be alone. Times like these are just precious and make me glad to be a mom!!!!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Nahum 1:7 The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble and He knows those who trust in Him.

Some days I feel so overwhelmed and stressed because of financial issues and just being too busy all the time. I start wondering if we did the right thing by adopting our boy from Haiti. Then I see and hear of the devastation in Haiti and I KNOW without a doubt we did the right thing. As I look at our boy, it is hard to remember he started out as a "failure to thrive baby". He is so healthy and happy because of the great care he received at GLA in Haiti and because he is so loved by his forever family. I think he is a little spoiled because he thinks the world revolves around him sometimes. People are so drawn to him and he is one of the sweetest kids I have ever met. He is such a lover and he melts everyone's heart. We recently met an older couple and were talking to them for quite some time at an outdoor event and Stanley bent over and kissed this man's boo-boo on his hand. He loves everyone he meets and he has the most expressive eyes. While we were at GLA in March picking up Stanley, we sat and talked to the volunteers and saw many of the babies waiting to have their adoptions finalized. It was so much fun just sitting out on the balcony and watching the volunteers the kids playing. I couldn't help but envy the volunteers, because how awesome it must be to be able to stay at GLA and just love on those babies all the time! There was a long term volunteer there and everyday she had a specific little girl with her. I just found out that the little girl had been HIV positive and passed away in August. It hit me like a brick wall. I am sure Anna, the volunteer, must be very sad at the loss of "her little girl" but also she must be rejoicing, knowing that Berlancia is with Jesus now! Here is a video on YouTube of Berlancia and Anna.